The Last 10 C Words. I'm behind. =-)

Comely:

1) The sense of suitableness is often from meeting, coming together, whence adjusting, putting in order.

4) Properly, becoming; suitable; whence, handsome; graceful

2) Decent; suitable; proper; becoming; suited to time, place, circumstances or persons.

   Comely:  handsomely; gracefully.

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Content: a.

 Literally, held, contained within limits: hence quiet; not disturbed; having a mind at peace; easy;

 satisfied, so as not to repine, objector oppose.

Content: v.

1) To satisfy the mind; to make quiet, so as to stop complaint or opposition; to appease;

      To make easy in any situation.

2) To please or gratify

Content: n

1) Rest or quietness of the mind in the present condition; satisfaction which holds the mind in

peace, restraining complaint, opposition, or further desire, and often implying a moderate

degree of happiness.

2) Acquiescence; satisfaction without examination.

3) The term used in the House of Lords in England, to express an assent to a bill or motion.

Content: n

1) Often in the plural, contents.  That which is contained; the thing or things held,

2) In geometry, the area or quanataity of matter or space included in certain lines.

3) The power of containing; capacity; extent within limits; as a shjip of great content.

included or comprehended within a limit or line; as the contents of a cask or bale; of a

room or a ship; the contents of a book or writing.

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Curious:

1) Strongly desirous to see what is novel, or to discover what is unknown; solicitous to see or to know;

2) Habitually inquisitive; addicted to research or enquiry; as a man of a curios turn of mind; sometimes followed

3) Accurate; careful not to mistake; solicitous to be correct.

4) Careful; nice; solicitous in selection; difficult to please.

5) Nice; exact subtile; made with care.

6) Artful, nicely diligent.

7) Wrought with care and art; elegant; neat; finished; as a curious girdle; curious work.

8) Requiring care and nicety; as curious arts.

9) Rigid; severe; particular.

10) Rare; singular; as a curious fact.

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Captivating:

1) Taking prisoner; engaging the affections.

2) Having power to engage the affections.

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Communicative:
1) Inclined to communicate; ready to impart to others.  In the sense of liberal of benefits, though legitimate, it is

2) Disposed to impart or disclose, as knowledge, opinions, or facts; free to communicate; not reserved.

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Considerate:

1) Given to consideration, or to sober refledction; thoughtful; hence, serious; circumsprct; careful; discreet;

2) Having respect to; regardful; as, considerate of praise.

3) Moderate; not rigorous.

inquisitive.

by after, and sometimes by of.

little used.

prudent; not hasty or rash; not negligent.

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Calm:

1) Still; quite; being at rest; as the air. Hence not stormy or tempestuous.

2) Undisturbed; not agitated; as a calm sea.

3) Undisturbed by passion; not afitated or excited; quiet; tranquil; as the mind, temper or attention.

Calm: noun

1) Stillness; tranquility; quiet; freedon from motion, agitation, or disturbance.

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Collected:

1) Gathered; assembled; congregated; drawn together.

2) Recovered from surprise or dismay; not disconcerted; cool; firm; prepared.

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Colorful:

Noah doesn’t have the word in his 1828 dictionary.

Cultivated:

1) Tilled; improved in excellence or condition; corrected and enlarged; cherished; meliorated; civilized; produced by tillage.

Okay! I'm behind on my blogging. And I have discovered another reason why the word of the day thing was bothering my groove thang. ;) I tend to like to just blog about the thing I'm inspired with naturally, instead of sticking with a schedule on what I'm suppose to be inspired by... but it's okay. I'm working through my issues. It doesn't all have to be the way I decide feels good to me! I can be changeable.

So these are the last of my C words. I've gone through them all now. I didn't connect with them all. But I expect as I go through this program again and again I will connect with different things in different ways and I feel very great with that idea.

I did connect with "Calm". I have felt more calm during the past few months of my life than I ever have. I have had some extremely stressful events happen, and still... I am handling them more calmly than I would have in the past. I'm glad of that.

I feel "cultivated" and yet I know that more is to come. And I'm good with that. I look forward to the tilling. ;)

I don't have much more to say. I'm looking forward to the E words. I hope I do well at them! Action time!

Love,
Bronwen

Changeable - Lots of Thoughts

Changeable -

1) That may change; subject to alteration; fickle; inconstant; mutable;variable; as a person of changeable mind.

2) Having the quality of suffering alteration of external appearance; as changeable silk.

I've been with this word for a little over a week. I've been thinking of it from two different "Unchangeable" perspectives.

Sure, we can know what changeable means. For me this definition appears to be relatively negative. Particularly when I think of changeable as "repentant" and "flexible". The words "fickle" and "inconstant" send me to their opposites for insight.

My mind keeps going directly to the most perfect form of "Unchangeable" I know. Our "Unchangeable" and perfect Father In Heaven. Whom the scriptures indicate (I was so blown away!) is also on a continual, eternal progression route... just like all of us. He's been where we are - probably a very, very... VERY long time ago. But there is a scripture... (shoot! The reference eludes. But it's in the New Testament. I think in Galatians. I'm not sure now! I'll look it up when I have another few minutes.)... that says very clearly that when Jesus came, The Father's First Born Son, who had been with Him from the Beginning... That the Father made further progress.

The thought is wonderful!

I used to think that once we got done here we would be done and everything from there on out would be a piece of cake. That sounded pretty boring though. And far from "eternal progression". So I was glad to learn it keeps going forward even when we grow up from being child gods (children of God), into full blown, grown up gods like our Father and Mother in Heaven.

So, back to unchangeable.

Currently, I want to be repentant. And changeable in that I want to become pure, and I know that I'm not yet. However! I can see that when I'm taught a truth, I don't want to decrease. Which is what the dictionary definition at the top of this post indicates. Once increase is achieved, I don't want to change that back. So, my desire is to be unchangeable in that thing. And because we are increasing line upon line, precept upon precept, I can then be unchangeable in the things that I know already, and continue to build upon that knowledge even if it alters the view a bit. No need to waffle in my confidence. (I think I know some people who would call that stubborn and prideful... but confidence is not the opposite of humility. Nor is it pride. So... yeah. I know that's true.)

I feel I have successfully connected with this word! Ready to move on!

Love,
Bronwen

C Words - Charismatic and Classic

I spent a day or three with Charismatic because I kept wanting to be dishonest with myself about it, but I got that under control.

So, according to the definition that I have, Charismatic goes to having a certain power of enchantment, or to be delightful.

I would say that adults don't find my powers so very great. But kids find me charismatic. Kids usually love me. They warm up to me and respond to me positively, for the most part. That's not to say that they don't eventually push my limits to see what will make me be NOT nice. But generally speaking I do hold a certain power of Charisma with children.

With adults, not so much. I have trouble making real friends. Usually other people will have a surface relationship with me but will not maintain a friendship with me if it becomes an issue of distance, or whatever. Everyone appears to like me alright - except for the rare sour pickle who just doesn't seem to be happy in life. Perhaps that person is jealous... at least that's what my parents taught me to think when I was young and someone was mean to me. I'll take it. ;)

My children are pretty charismatic.

Parker is charismatic.

Thomas is charismatic.

I think I understand this word.  It's a power of positive influence if used properly. I can also see how charisma could be used for serving the evil emperor of the dark side. His minions can be mightily full of charm. Perhaps charm and charisma aren't the same thing. Perhaps one is good and one is bad. Didn't someone already write about that lately?

Okay, Classic.

I have a document without a definition of classic.

Classic:
1)
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See.

So I had to figure it out for myself.

clas·sic  (klsk)adj.

1.

a. Belonging to the highest rank or class.

b. Serving as the established model or standard: a classic example of colonial architecture.

c. Having lasting significance or worth; enduring.

 

I like definition C. I can say that I know that I am classic. I know that classic is good. And I love classic.

 

I really don't have any other thoughts on classic. We should all be enduring to the end. We were all held in reserve for our lasting significance. We are classic and valiant. ;)

 

Love you,

Bronwen

C - Words - Complete

Today's word was complete.

First thing this morning, before I knew today's word, I determined to completely clean my home. I did it - in 80 degrees - all day. I took a lot out of me but I decided to be completely okay with the heat, and the sweat (which I usually abhor, but have determined is healthy for me and I may as well do a lot of it on a day when I will need a shower at the end of the day anyway.)

I also completely stood my ground about doing the right thing when someone else wanted me to disobey.

That was didn't feel very good at first. But I've come to a place, after talking things through, where I can handle the onslaught of emotional persecution that came as a consequence of my choice and smile.

Yep! I'm smiling anyway. I feel MORE complete in my confidence and faith. Perhaps it's a little shaky. But I'm still not going to give in and DO the wrong thing. I hope I can maintain the right FEELINGS. I'm done being bullied into doing wrong things.

Anyway. I'm feeling more completed!

Completed:

1)     Finished; ended; perfected; fulfilled; accomplished.

 


Yay!

Love,

Bronwen

My feelings on Chosen and Concise

Well, I did what I said I would do. ;) I've spent the past several days pondering on the word "Chosen" and "Concise".

I now know why these words threw me for a loop. It's silly, but it's really all about how whomever is reading my blog perceives me after I own what I know about myself and how I view my own strengths and weaknesses.

I lean to wanting to write things like: "I know I have a long way to go." (which is still true) just to be sure that YOU know that I don't think I'm so perfect and wonderful.

But... the truth is... I DO see my strengths. I see my progress. And I'm pleased with my progress. I know who I am and I'm happy to be here. I'm happy to do my work here and I'm glad to be part of the Lord's plan here.

I know my part (as well as many others - even everyone born on this Earth!) is extremely important and that if I don't DO my part then the side of righteousness is weakened and the side of evil is strengthened. I know it.

I have some family members whom have tainted me in the past. I have expressed righteous thoughts and because it challenged them to grown and study they, instead, became vindictive and act (yes, still, more than 2 years later) like I live my life to judge them as evil people. They say many mean things about me behind my back trying to get family members, whom love and respect me, to turn on me. (Obviously they tell me what is happening or I wouldn't know about it because I choose to keep distance between me and the abuse.)

Because this stuff all originated in a blogging setting I have tended to be somewhat shy about some things. But fear is so bad. I know that. And once I pinpointed the problem and the source I feel that I can move on.

Perhaps someone along the way will read my blog posts and think that I think too much of myself. I don't think too much of myself. Nor do I think too much of you and everyone else. I think great things, and I know that they are absolutely true and that we are entirely capable of obtaining perfection. But the perfection is not from the view of the world. It is strange to them. It is imperfect to them. The perfection I seek, and that I know we can all accomplish, is God's perfection. Merciful, strict, loving, and without prejudice.

I'm not sorry I took so many days on these words.

I've come to realize that I have been LEARNING to be concise, to articulate myself carefully so that all of my words make sense in the least amount of words. I'm not perfectly concise yet. But... that's okay. I'll get there.

I am chosen. I know that I am chosen for this day. I know that I am chosen for my husband. I know that I am chosen for my children. I know that I am chosen for my assignments, and my mission is important and that I was chosen - hand picked - to be the one to do these things.

I know that YOU were chosen to do something important as well. I know that we are the strongest, most valiant people in the history of the Spirit Children sent to do battle with the enemy of Christ, on this Earth now - to be SURE that we don't JUST get through one day and move on to the next - but to get something marvelous done for our Salvation, and to move forward the purposes of our loving Father in Heaven.

I know it.

And now... I have to acknowledge that someone who reads this might get mad at me for saying that! And what it comes down to is that... that isn't my problem. I can't MAKE anyone mad. I don't have that kind of power. (Wah-meee Wah-meee!) Would that I did. Perhaps I could do some good with the power of controlling someone else's feelings and emotions.

But alas - I cannot. I am just a little girl. ;)

Okay! On to the next word!

Love,
Bronwen

Day 16 - C Words - Cooperative

I connected to this word several days ago through Larry's day with it. And the word coordinate connected me with this word fairly strongly since it seems to me that in a partnership, first you coordinate, then you cooperate.

Ordinate, operate. Seems very significant to me.

But let's pull out the actual, literal definition from the 1800's dictionary, shall we?

                                      Cooperative:

                                      Operating jointly to the same end.

Ugh! Okay, I'm going to openly display my dissatisfaction with myself in this CEO process! I don't know why... I'm not generally at a loss for words, but I can't seem to blog well about these words!

I even connected with this one, but I'm just getting frustrated and I feel self conscious because I'm blogging instead of just journaling and I know someone else is reading my thoughts. (Reading my thoughts lol!)

I want to offer something great in these blog posts but the more I try to be profound the less I am inspired to be so. Which is becoming irritating. Which I know is a less than best feeling and I shouldn't feel it.

I'm wondering... can we take a break for a couple of days to regroup and then get back on task? Or can we take more than one day with each word? Will we still get the best this challenge has to offer if we do that? I don't know.

I know it's up to me. I just want to do it the way it was intended to be done.

Well, I just pin pointed the problem. It IS the pressure. I'm too worried about what other people think of what my experience looks like from the viewpoint of being "Bronwen's blog reader".

Perhaps the answer is to take a day or two... I think I might. My attitude is not good and I find that I need time to deal with the meaty gook that I find wrong with myself as I go through this challenge. It's good. I need to learn my weaknesses so that I can become stronger. It's strengthening, as long as I take the time to deal with the "stuff".

I hope this isn't a bad example, but I need to take those days and repent and get ready to move forward before I just keep plowing ahead with a self pity attitude.

I love this program! The biggest issue that is coming up for me is that huge concern that others are looking at me and judging me harshly. I want everyone to think well of me. To think I'm smart, and inspired. But I KNOW that it doesn't matter. Perhaps I am inspired... but pride and worry... and that stupid desire for a pat on the back from mankind... those things aren't helping me progress!

See you in a day or two.

Love,
Bronwen

Days 13, 14, 15 - C Words - Chosen, Confident, Concise

Today's word is Concise.

I'm getting behind. I admit that some days just sitting down to open my computer and remind myself what word I'm on today doesn't happen very well. I think having a "card of the day" would be an amazing addition to the system. I'm looking forward to that.

I'm currently playing "life guard" for my little swimming sweethearts and I decided I might be able to get away with writing down some feelings... as long as I am concise. ;)

The day before yesterday the word was "Chosen".

That word hung with me all day with ease. I have had several blessings including my patriarchal blessing where the Lord reveals to me that I am "choice" and "chosen" for this day and my specific, special, and important mission... which I'm still trying to define.

"Many are called but few are chosen." kept coming to mind that day.

But the bottom line is that if I am honest with what I know to be true because I believe in the great power of faith, and the authority of the priesthood, and I believe in the gift of prophesy... I have had many witnesses that I AM CHOSEN. All of use living on the Earth right now are chosen. That's a big deal. Who cares if there are so many of us. There are a whole lot more of the enemy roaming around bothering everyone. The fact that we are chosen for this time is no small thing. We are hear to do literal battle. Now to figure out what that looks like to the Lord and do it.

Yesterday the word was confident.

Have you noticed that the last definition of confident is actually NEGATIVE? Can you really be overly confident? I don't know. I think... no. Unless that confidence is in something that isn't worthy of having such trust.

But when I generally think of confidence I cap it off with "in the Lord". I suppose the dictionary people don't think of it that way...

Guess what... I didn't really even know yesterday's word was "confident" until a few minutes ago. I spent the whole weekend rushing around with a birthday party, guests, and clean up, and then I crashed hard and slept most of the day yesterday. I hope on my next go-round I do a better job staying on task. :-P

And now, "Concise".

Concise:
1) Brief; short;, applied to language or style; containing few words; comprehensive; comprehending much in few words, or the principal matters only.

I'm not generally concise in my language. I tend to be wordy and sometimes it takes me a long time to get around to figuring out HOW to say what I feel.

Most of the time when I DO something I am straight to the point and get things done well and quickly. I think there is more to this word than I comprehend. It's barely 4:10pm though so maybe by the time I go to bed I will feel more connected to it.

Ugh! Can we start over? I feel like I'm failing! (That was concise, right? LOL!)

Love,
Bronwen

Day 12 - C Words - Centered

Today I made a panel of drapes for my daughter's room.

It's a pretty panel, and my first drapes ever. I learned a valuable lesson as I worried my head the whole time about perfectly straight lines, and "what ifs" until I was almost done.

I knew my husband would not like them. I wished I hadn't known that. But I knew that he would only tell me what he WISHED they were like once I got them up instead of allowing me a moment of gladness that I had finished and done good word on my very first drapes.

I also centered my thoughts on worries that my Mom would look too closely and see the uneven lines, or which side I sewed first and proceed to tell me how I should have done the job... I knew her intentions would be good. But I worried, and braced myself for what was probably coming, even if it was in an attitude of love.

I was very centered on how to overcome the feelings that I didn't want to have under the pressure of such "constructive criticism" and "advice" when I asked the Lord to help me do it so that it would please Him.

You know what He said!?

He said to center on my love for my daughter and forget the rest. Put love into it and make it vibrate with the focus of my positive energy and great love for my sweet girl.

And you know what? It worked. I felt it. And SHE loves the drapes. She was grateful for them. And she is happy with them.

So I'm centered on that and I'm thankful for the Heavenly Advice.

Love,
Bronwen

Day 11 - C Words - Careful

I'm always telling my kids to "be careful" and "take care" when referring to caution.

Through much pondering and prayer I've come to know that the Lord sees "fear" and "caution" as different things. He has prompted me to teach my children caution as a protection to them, but to be clear that they need not fear.

So, "careful" is a word that I've spent many days contemplating before this one. My eyes are pretty droopy right now though so I won't attempt to catalog the whole of my thoughts.

I will say this though:

I know that being full of care is good. Not only in the direction of caution - we live in a corrupt world. But in the direction of charity - we live in a corrupt world. These things are required here.

We have a responsibility and accountability system at our house and back talking or disobeying or whining, etc. are things that our children get held accountable for doing. There are times when my children open their mouths to commit the offense when I hold up a finger before words fly, and say: "Take care what you say."

Care has such a marvelously grand scope. And all good.

Love,
Bronwen

Days 9 and 10 - C Words - Conscious

Connected and Conscious... hmmm...

Yesterday the word was "connected". It was the perfect day for that word - as has each word been all along these last 10 days.

An arrangement has been made that effects me where my efforts are valuable, and where I can serve and connect with people to everyone's benefit. But there was something that just didn't feel right. I was feeling disconnected from the long term goal of the rest of the people involved at the core of the arrangement.

Thinking on the word "connected" helped me to articulate those feelings and finally get them off my chest. It made a difference. I'm glad. I think that soon I will feel more connected to the long term goal in the eyes of the rest of the "core". I feel that I am part of that core. I have a vision to connect with the vision of others and we can all grow together. I'm so grateful for this program. I really didn't know how to articulate those feelings before.

Today's word has been conscious.

I've been very self conscious today. I think being conscious of self is a good thing. To be conscious of my children is expected of others. To be conscious of the Holy Ghost is imperative.

Until today I thought being "self conscious" was a bad thing. But conscious goes to "aware". And aware is definitely on the up and up.

I've studied the effects of the sub-conscious over the years. I've come to learn that the conscious mind is the filter for the sub-conscious mind and is very important. To ignore is to let information flow to the unbridled sub-conscious mind and allow someone else to shape your life.

Children have very undeveloped conscious filters.

So my job as a mother is to be super conscious of what they see and hear. So that I am the one shaping their lives instead of someone a little less  or even a LOT less trustworthy.

Parents with their children around their skirts or working the fields alongside them in the old days (and rarely still these days) had it right. They knew how important it was to be their children's teachers instead of allowing the less trustworthy "society" teach their children what is right and wrong... when often right is made out to be wrong, and wrong is made out to be right. It's rampant now.

These are the things that I connected with today as far as conscious goes. I think there are quite a few people who would be upset at me for voicing that particular thought. It's been pushed on us by our governors and media that "it takes a community to raise a child" for several generations now. And I am here to witness that based on what I've learned that is WRONG. It is a lie. Parents should be taking what flows to their children's sub-conscious minds into their own stewardship. It is God's plan. That's why He created the family the way He did. (Among other reasons.)

Phew! Now, I have put myself in a place to be judged if someone who doesn't do that reads this. But the bottom line is that I know it for myself, and now I'm accountable for doing it. I'll do my very best and learn to do it better every day.

Today, I have become a more conscious mother.

Love,
Bronwen

Day 8 - C Words - Constant

My mom has had to constantly be telling me today that the word of the day is CONSTANT! LOL!

"Be thou constant unto me."

That's what I think of when I think of the word "constant".

Being constant... if I am constant then I won't "decrease". I won't go backward. I won't have to be learning the same lesson over and over and over again. I can be taught line upon line and be making strides in an upward/forward direction instead of perpetually stopping and taking steps back out of ignorance. (You know, ignoring the truth. Ignoring the promptings. Ignorant.)

I want to be absolutely constant unto Him.

Love,
Bronwen

Day 7 - C Words - Coordinate

So, it's actually day 8... but I didn't blog yesterday. So I'm recording my thoughts from day 7 today.

Coordinate.

I tried really hard all day to think of this as being balanced. And while I know that being coordinated is what keeps us from falling on our faces all the time, I just couldn't keep my mind on that broad of a  view...

All day my mind kept returning to the CO part. Co - ordinate.

Then I thought of how coordinate also means a location. As in "what are the coordinates?" And how with a coordinate location two lines meet in the middle somewhere.

So THEN I pondered how "CO" pertains to company, or two or more.

What it came down to is that I see my marriage differently since yesterday. Coordinated is on it's way to being cooperative. In fact, coordinate seems to be the first step TOWARD cooperation. First you ordinate, then you operate. But it takes at least two to make the "co".

Longitude is coming from one direction. Latitude is coming from another. But they meet at a point... always.

Love,
Bronwen

Day 6 - C Words - Compassion

Okay... It's been a busy day. I'm embarrassed to say that I only THINK that today's word is compassion.

*Time passing while I look. Jeopardy theme song playing in your head.*

Okay. I looked. I was right! Today it was compassion. And good thing too cause I don't know what I would have done to stay organized if I got out of order! LOL!

Okay. I felt compassion today.

Today I woke up and fed my hungry baby. Snuggled with my husband. And took care of my garden, which was in great need of being weeded before the good plants got choked out by the weeks which spring up spontaneously.

(How come the bugs don't eat the unwanted weeds away. They only eat my baby cucumber plants. Hmmm.)

I felt compassion for my family, and my plants. They needed me. I could see that. And I didn't feel used in caring for them. I felt glad! So grateful that I have the ability, and capacity, to take care of my stewardship.

Stewardship was the theme of the day around here.

I feel strongly that fulfilling a stewardship properly requires a great deal of compassion. In my experience compassion goes to the feelings that come to an individual to bring about a service.

That makes me think of "compassionate services". Funny. But not. I suppose you could do "begrudged services" if you had a bad attitude.

My family is memorizing a scripture. I think it's appropriate here.

"Behold, a bitter fountain cannot bring forth good water. Neither can a good fountain bring forth bitter water..."

A person can do the exact same act of service with a bitter heart and mind and perhaps the service gets done the same way... but perhaps the receiving party would feel the bitterness and be sorry they were getting served.

On the other hand a person can do an act of service with a heart full of compassion, which is good, and the receiving party would feel blessed by the act of kindness.

Cause... if it isn't kind... compassionate... if it's done bitterly... is it truly and act of kindness at all? Even if the same service was rendered? I think not. The vibe would be too different. It would ooze out all over everyone. Both ways. Good fountain, or bad fountain.

I had a good day. I'm glad this was the word of the day. I really love this word of the day thing. It's so good for me. Do you feel me changing? I feel me changing.

Who's reading this anyway LOL! I had 10 people look at this blog just today. Makes me feel a little nervous! LOL!

Love,
Bronwen

Day 5 - C Words - Contrite

Contrite goes to "feeling true penitence for offending God" according to this old 1800 something dictionary.

To be bruised. Beaten. Etc. And truly sorry for offending God.

I have 4 sweet kids. There are times that they get in trouble for doing something wrong and as they sit and think over their mistake they feel sooooo sorry for themselves. So sorry that they have to sit and think it over. But... clearly not so sorry that they did the thing that they shouldn't have done.

In fact - most of the time it's very clear that they would go do it again in a second.

Don't we see that in our criminal system too? But that's just a random thought. This is about how I feel, and responded today regarding the word "contrite".

I didn't feel very contrite today. I have felt contrite before. But today... I was a good girl for the most part. (I can't say perfect because I'm sure I made mistakes, and I just don't know what they are yet.)

Today... tonight... pondering my life and the phrase "broken heart, AND contrite spirit" the thing that came to me that I never had thought of before regarding that phrase is this:

One is body and emotion, and the other is spirit. And together we have a totally devoted soul.

I want to be that.

But I don't know how to feel totally bruised and stuff every day. Especially when I have a good day and I don't know that to be sorry about.

I hope that isn't prideful. I'm ready for the Holy Ghost to tell me what I did wrong now! LOL! I'm sure there is something. I'm still working with my natural man body here. If I'm still this then I'm still utterly flawed.

Okay. Rambling. ;)

Love,
Bronwen

Day 4 - C Words - Composed

Today I learned a bit about the word "composed".

I learned that sometimes I compose myself and use sharpness. Sometimes I compose myself and stay silent. Sometimes I compose myself and smile sweetly. Sometimes I compose myself and use a loud voice.

And sometimes I don't compose myself and I freak out a little when I feel overwhelmed. Especially if everyone is talking at me at once. ARGH!

So, yeah. I lost my composure a few times as they day went on. But, I'm glad to say that I got it back together quickly and moved on. It was good to keep that word in my mind all day.

Oh! I'm so tired!

My baby is teething and won't sleep through the night. Night after night after night of waking up 6-8 times a night to go and hug and lay my baby back down is taking its toll on my composure for sure. But after pondering my day, and thinking of lessons I've pondered in the past... I think there can be a miracle for me (and everyone like me who is sleep deprived) in that I believe that the Lord can make every moment of rest I got last night count.

Perhaps, by the power of my faith, I can be emotionally contained, clear headed, clean of goobery spirits, and composed all day long anyway. Perhaps it doesn't even have to be tough! Perhaps every moment of sleep I get is all the sleep I need to have a great day and feel exceptional!

I'm still in ask mode about this, but I think it's possible. Even probable.

Okay. 10pm and time to rest for Bronwen.

Love,
Bronwen

Day 3 - C Words - Clean

Clean.

Wow, it's amazing how much more CLEAR I am today after a good night sleep. Now I can actually think about "Clean".

The word "clean" brings up a lot of thoughts for me.

I want my house to be clean, especially since it is dedicated to Christ. Which makes it a Temple unto Him. My body is also a Temple dedicated unto Him through baptism.

A field that is "clean" is generally dedicated to a specific purpose.

Clean means "pure" or "innocent" as well. I think of clean when I think of repentance. To have our garments made pure in the blood of Christ. The Atonement.

It definitely fits my theme of being filled with the Glory of Christ.

• To be a pure vessel - to contain what things Christ wants me to contain.

• To clear out the foggy mist of darkness from my brain and body and make room for what Christ wants to fill me with.

• To be clean of the blood and sins of myself and this generation through repentance and service in the Name of Christ - doing mighty works in His Name.

 I have to say. After 3 days... C words are making a lot of sense to me. I really think that after I do this first 90 days I'll go back and do it again to see how the Lord builds upon my understanding line upon line.

This certainly is a program that I could do over and over again for the rest of my life, and I know that each time I go through the C.E.O. words I will become a better Daughter of God.

....

It just hit me anew.

We are children of God!

That means... we are literally Child Gods. I see myself so differently when I think of it like that.

Love,
Bronwen

Day 2 - C Words - Clear

Clear.

I love the definitions for "Clear". I feel drawn to the one pertaining to clarity - like water being clear and clean with no impurities. I like to think of applying that one to myself. And since I'm already on the "being filled with Christ's Glory" line of thought... it really does go with the thoughts that came to me yesterday with the word "Contained".

Gotta make room so I can contain it!

The day is young. I may write again. I may not. But I do like this word. I want to be pure. Illuminated with Holy Light.

Love,
Bronwen

Day 1 - C Words - Contained

Contained is a very good word to being this challenge, I think.

It has to do with being a vessel. It has to do with how much I can hold. And it brings my mind to being filled with the glory of Christ.

Okay, so if I'm going to be filled up with His glory then I'd best free up some space. Which brings my mind to the gospel of Jesus Christ and all of the codes of conduct and feelings that are the Law of the Gospel.

And THAT brings my mind to being Celestial - which, as I understand it, is just another word for being filled with the Glory of Christ... because living His Law perfectly (like He did, and told us to do) means that I can then stand in His glory and receive His image in my eyes.

In MY EYES! My countenance. His light shining in my eyes. From Him, and then through my eyes to shine like a beacon on a hill.

Wow. Contained is a good word.

Love,
Bronwen

The Strengths "Party"

Tonight was the first of my "strength parties". I have a few friends that I will still call upon to help me unearth some strengths. But tonight I spent some time with my parents.

They are always good for my ego. LOL!

With them I feel like I can't fail.

I learned something powerful during out chat tonight. It doesn't make someone better to have their flaws pointed out. It actually makes them worse. It tears them down... not in a humbling way. But in a way that hurts both people - the tearer and the torn.

We can generally think of everything that is wrong with us. But thinking up strengths... and actually believing that those strengths are part of us... that's tough.

And one more thing. This "strengths party" thing didn't build up anyone's pride. Amazing, eh? The adversary sure has some of us shnIkied when it comes to that, eh? How much I have to change in how I think of being a mother... and a wife.

It makes me want to build more strengths.

It makes me want to be strong in telling other people their strengths - genuinely - and without taking it back in a conversation where I (all in "love") tell my husband that holds grudges. It's a weakness, not a strength! However small. However large.

Perhaps those things are true of people that are told them. But it doesn't matter. It ONLY hurts. Nothing else. We shouldn't be tearing. We should be strengthening.

I should be strengthening.

That's what I came away with here. I'm glad.

Now... to go DO it! (I AM!)

Love,
Bronwen

Writing Down My Weaknesses and Strengths

Well, I've been working diligently on improving myself... since I can remember. But most seriously in the past three years. So writing down my weaknesses, as well as my strengths, was very empowering... uplifting even!

I was surprised by that!

It brought to my attention the fact that the atonement really works. Some of my weaknesses have become strengths! It works! Weee!

I'm not going to detail for all to read what I wrote down. But I do feel strengthened by the experience already.

I'm very happy to be on this Every Woman a CEO journey. I expect to come out a more graceful woman.

Love,
Bronwen