Wednesday, August 7, 2013

The Last 10 C Words. I'm behind. =-)

Comely:

1) The sense of suitableness is often from meeting, coming together, whence adjusting, putting in order.

4) Properly, becoming; suitable; whence, handsome; graceful

2) Decent; suitable; proper; becoming; suited to time, place, circumstances or persons.

   Comely:  handsomely; gracefully.

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Content: a.

 Literally, held, contained within limits: hence quiet; not disturbed; having a mind at peace; easy;

 satisfied, so as not to repine, objector oppose.

Content: v.

1) To satisfy the mind; to make quiet, so as to stop complaint or opposition; to appease;

      To make easy in any situation.

2) To please or gratify

Content: n

1) Rest or quietness of the mind in the present condition; satisfaction which holds the mind in

peace, restraining complaint, opposition, or further desire, and often implying a moderate

degree of happiness.

2) Acquiescence; satisfaction without examination.

3) The term used in the House of Lords in England, to express an assent to a bill or motion.

Content: n

1) Often in the plural, contents.  That which is contained; the thing or things held,

2) In geometry, the area or quanataity of matter or space included in certain lines.

3) The power of containing; capacity; extent within limits; as a shjip of great content.

included or comprehended within a limit or line; as the contents of a cask or bale; of a

room or a ship; the contents of a book or writing.

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Curious:

1) Strongly desirous to see what is novel, or to discover what is unknown; solicitous to see or to know;

2) Habitually inquisitive; addicted to research or enquiry; as a man of a curios turn of mind; sometimes followed

3) Accurate; careful not to mistake; solicitous to be correct.

4) Careful; nice; solicitous in selection; difficult to please.

5) Nice; exact subtile; made with care.

6) Artful, nicely diligent.

7) Wrought with care and art; elegant; neat; finished; as a curious girdle; curious work.

8) Requiring care and nicety; as curious arts.

9) Rigid; severe; particular.

10) Rare; singular; as a curious fact.

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Captivating:

1) Taking prisoner; engaging the affections.

2) Having power to engage the affections.

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Communicative:
1) Inclined to communicate; ready to impart to others.  In the sense of liberal of benefits, though legitimate, it is

2) Disposed to impart or disclose, as knowledge, opinions, or facts; free to communicate; not reserved.

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Considerate:

1) Given to consideration, or to sober refledction; thoughtful; hence, serious; circumsprct; careful; discreet;

2) Having respect to; regardful; as, considerate of praise.

3) Moderate; not rigorous.

inquisitive.

by after, and sometimes by of.

little used.

prudent; not hasty or rash; not negligent.

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Calm:

1) Still; quite; being at rest; as the air. Hence not stormy or tempestuous.

2) Undisturbed; not agitated; as a calm sea.

3) Undisturbed by passion; not afitated or excited; quiet; tranquil; as the mind, temper or attention.

Calm: noun

1) Stillness; tranquility; quiet; freedon from motion, agitation, or disturbance.

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Collected:

1) Gathered; assembled; congregated; drawn together.

2) Recovered from surprise or dismay; not disconcerted; cool; firm; prepared.

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Colorful:

Noah doesn’t have the word in his 1828 dictionary.

Cultivated:

1) Tilled; improved in excellence or condition; corrected and enlarged; cherished; meliorated; civilized; produced by tillage.

Okay! I'm behind on my blogging. And I have discovered another reason why the word of the day thing was bothering my groove thang. ;) I tend to like to just blog about the thing I'm inspired with naturally, instead of sticking with a schedule on what I'm suppose to be inspired by... but it's okay. I'm working through my issues. It doesn't all have to be the way I decide feels good to me! I can be changeable.

So these are the last of my C words. I've gone through them all now. I didn't connect with them all. But I expect as I go through this program again and again I will connect with different things in different ways and I feel very great with that idea.

I did connect with "Calm". I have felt more calm during the past few months of my life than I ever have. I have had some extremely stressful events happen, and still... I am handling them more calmly than I would have in the past. I'm glad of that.

I feel "cultivated" and yet I know that more is to come. And I'm good with that. I look forward to the tilling. ;)

I don't have much more to say. I'm looking forward to the E words. I hope I do well at them! Action time!

Love,
Bronwen

Monday, July 29, 2013

Changeable - Lots of Thoughts

Changeable -

1) That may change; subject to alteration; fickle; inconstant; mutable;variable; as a person of changeable mind.

2) Having the quality of suffering alteration of external appearance; as changeable silk.

I've been with this word for a little over a week. I've been thinking of it from two different "Unchangeable" perspectives.

Sure, we can know what changeable means. For me this definition appears to be relatively negative. Particularly when I think of changeable as "repentant" and "flexible". The words "fickle" and "inconstant" send me to their opposites for insight.

My mind keeps going directly to the most perfect form of "Unchangeable" I know. Our "Unchangeable" and perfect Father In Heaven. Whom the scriptures indicate (I was so blown away!) is also on a continual, eternal progression route... just like all of us. He's been where we are - probably a very, very... VERY long time ago. But there is a scripture... (shoot! The reference eludes. But it's in the New Testament. I think in Galatians. I'm not sure now! I'll look it up when I have another few minutes.)... that says very clearly that when Jesus came, The Father's First Born Son, who had been with Him from the Beginning... That the Father made further progress.

The thought is wonderful!

I used to think that once we got done here we would be done and everything from there on out would be a piece of cake. That sounded pretty boring though. And far from "eternal progression". So I was glad to learn it keeps going forward even when we grow up from being child gods (children of God), into full blown, grown up gods like our Father and Mother in Heaven.

So, back to unchangeable.

Currently, I want to be repentant. And changeable in that I want to become pure, and I know that I'm not yet. However! I can see that when I'm taught a truth, I don't want to decrease. Which is what the dictionary definition at the top of this post indicates. Once increase is achieved, I don't want to change that back. So, my desire is to be unchangeable in that thing. And because we are increasing line upon line, precept upon precept, I can then be unchangeable in the things that I know already, and continue to build upon that knowledge even if it alters the view a bit. No need to waffle in my confidence. (I think I know some people who would call that stubborn and prideful... but confidence is not the opposite of humility. Nor is it pride. So... yeah. I know that's true.)

I feel I have successfully connected with this word! Ready to move on!

Love,
Bronwen

Friday, July 19, 2013

C Words - Charismatic and Classic

I spent a day or three with Charismatic because I kept wanting to be dishonest with myself about it, but I got that under control.

So, according to the definition that I have, Charismatic goes to having a certain power of enchantment, or to be delightful.

I would say that adults don't find my powers so very great. But kids find me charismatic. Kids usually love me. They warm up to me and respond to me positively, for the most part. That's not to say that they don't eventually push my limits to see what will make me be NOT nice. But generally speaking I do hold a certain power of Charisma with children.

With adults, not so much. I have trouble making real friends. Usually other people will have a surface relationship with me but will not maintain a friendship with me if it becomes an issue of distance, or whatever. Everyone appears to like me alright - except for the rare sour pickle who just doesn't seem to be happy in life. Perhaps that person is jealous... at least that's what my parents taught me to think when I was young and someone was mean to me. I'll take it. ;)

My children are pretty charismatic.

Parker is charismatic.

Thomas is charismatic.

I think I understand this word.  It's a power of positive influence if used properly. I can also see how charisma could be used for serving the evil emperor of the dark side. His minions can be mightily full of charm. Perhaps charm and charisma aren't the same thing. Perhaps one is good and one is bad. Didn't someone already write about that lately?

Okay, Classic.

I have a document without a definition of classic.

Classic:
1)
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See.

So I had to figure it out for myself.

clas·sic  (klsk)adj.
1.
a. Belonging to the highest rank or class.
b. Serving as the established model or standard: a classic example of colonial architecture.
c. Having lasting significance or worth; enduring.
 
I like definition C. I can say that I know that I am classic. I know that classic is good. And I love classic.
 
I really don't have any other thoughts on classic. We should all be enduring to the end. We were all held in reserve for our lasting significance. We are classic and valiant. ;)
 
Love you,
Bronwen

Friday, July 12, 2013

C - Words - Complete

Today's word was complete.

First thing this morning, before I knew today's word, I determined to completely clean my home. I did it - in 80 degrees - all day. I took a lot out of me but I decided to be completely okay with the heat, and the sweat (which I usually abhor, but have determined is healthy for me and I may as well do a lot of it on a day when I will need a shower at the end of the day anyway.)

I also completely stood my ground about doing the right thing when someone else wanted me to disobey.

That was didn't feel very good at first. But I've come to a place, after talking things through, where I can handle the onslaught of emotional persecution that came as a consequence of my choice and smile.

Yep! I'm smiling anyway. I feel MORE complete in my confidence and faith. Perhaps it's a little shaky. But I'm still not going to give in and DO the wrong thing. I hope I can maintain the right FEELINGS. I'm done being bullied into doing wrong things.

Anyway. I'm feeling more completed!



Completed:
1)     Finished; ended; perfected; fulfilled; accomplished.
 


Yay!

Love,

Bronwen

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

My feelings on Chosen and Concise

Well, I did what I said I would do. ;) I've spent the past several days pondering on the word "Chosen" and "Concise".

I now know why these words threw me for a loop. It's silly, but it's really all about how whomever is reading my blog perceives me after I own what I know about myself and how I view my own strengths and weaknesses.

I lean to wanting to write things like: "I know I have a long way to go." (which is still true) just to be sure that YOU know that I don't think I'm so perfect and wonderful.

But... the truth is... I DO see my strengths. I see my progress. And I'm pleased with my progress. I know who I am and I'm happy to be here. I'm happy to do my work here and I'm glad to be part of the Lord's plan here.

I know my part (as well as many others - even everyone born on this Earth!) is extremely important and that if I don't DO my part then the side of righteousness is weakened and the side of evil is strengthened. I know it.

I have some family members whom have tainted me in the past. I have expressed righteous thoughts and because it challenged them to grown and study they, instead, became vindictive and act (yes, still, more than 2 years later) like I live my life to judge them as evil people. They say many mean things about me behind my back trying to get family members, whom love and respect me, to turn on me. (Obviously they tell me what is happening or I wouldn't know about it because I choose to keep distance between me and the abuse.)

Because this stuff all originated in a blogging setting I have tended to be somewhat shy about some things. But fear is so bad. I know that. And once I pinpointed the problem and the source I feel that I can move on.

Perhaps someone along the way will read my blog posts and think that I think too much of myself. I don't think too much of myself. Nor do I think too much of you and everyone else. I think great things, and I know that they are absolutely true and that we are entirely capable of obtaining perfection. But the perfection is not from the view of the world. It is strange to them. It is imperfect to them. The perfection I seek, and that I know we can all accomplish, is God's perfection. Merciful, strict, loving, and without prejudice.

I'm not sorry I took so many days on these words.

I've come to realize that I have been LEARNING to be concise, to articulate myself carefully so that all of my words make sense in the least amount of words. I'm not perfectly concise yet. But... that's okay. I'll get there.

I am chosen. I know that I am chosen for this day. I know that I am chosen for my husband. I know that I am chosen for my children. I know that I am chosen for my assignments, and my mission is important and that I was chosen - hand picked - to be the one to do these things.

I know that YOU were chosen to do something important as well. I know that we are the strongest, most valiant people in the history of the Spirit Children sent to do battle with the enemy of Christ, on this Earth now - to be SURE that we don't JUST get through one day and move on to the next - but to get something marvelous done for our Salvation, and to move forward the purposes of our loving Father in Heaven.

I know it.

And now... I have to acknowledge that someone who reads this might get mad at me for saying that! And what it comes down to is that... that isn't my problem. I can't MAKE anyone mad. I don't have that kind of power. (Wah-meee Wah-meee!) Would that I did. Perhaps I could do some good with the power of controlling someone else's feelings and emotions.

But alas - I cannot. I am just a little girl. ;)

Okay! On to the next word!

Love,
Bronwen

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Day 16 - C Words - Cooperative

I connected to this word several days ago through Larry's day with it. And the word coordinate connected me with this word fairly strongly since it seems to me that in a partnership, first you coordinate, then you cooperate.

Ordinate, operate. Seems very significant to me.

But let's pull out the actual, literal definition from the 1800's dictionary, shall we?

                                      Cooperative:

                                      Operating jointly to the same end.

Ugh! Okay, I'm going to openly display my dissatisfaction with myself in this CEO process! I don't know why... I'm not generally at a loss for words, but I can't seem to blog well about these words!

I even connected with this one, but I'm just getting frustrated and I feel self conscious because I'm blogging instead of just journaling and I know someone else is reading my thoughts. (Reading my thoughts lol!)

I want to offer something great in these blog posts but the more I try to be profound the less I am inspired to be so. Which is becoming irritating. Which I know is a less than best feeling and I shouldn't feel it.

I'm wondering... can we take a break for a couple of days to regroup and then get back on task? Or can we take more than one day with each word? Will we still get the best this challenge has to offer if we do that? I don't know.

I know it's up to me. I just want to do it the way it was intended to be done.

Well, I just pin pointed the problem. It IS the pressure. I'm too worried about what other people think of what my experience looks like from the viewpoint of being "Bronwen's blog reader".

Perhaps the answer is to take a day or two... I think I might. My attitude is not good and I find that I need time to deal with the meaty gook that I find wrong with myself as I go through this challenge. It's good. I need to learn my weaknesses so that I can become stronger. It's strengthening, as long as I take the time to deal with the "stuff".

I hope this isn't a bad example, but I need to take those days and repent and get ready to move forward before I just keep plowing ahead with a self pity attitude.

I love this program! The biggest issue that is coming up for me is that huge concern that others are looking at me and judging me harshly. I want everyone to think well of me. To think I'm smart, and inspired. But I KNOW that it doesn't matter. Perhaps I am inspired... but pride and worry... and that stupid desire for a pat on the back from mankind... those things aren't helping me progress!

See you in a day or two.

Love,
Bronwen

Monday, July 1, 2013

Days 13, 14, 15 - C Words - Chosen, Confident, Concise

Today's word is Concise.

I'm getting behind. I admit that some days just sitting down to open my computer and remind myself what word I'm on today doesn't happen very well. I think having a "card of the day" would be an amazing addition to the system. I'm looking forward to that.

I'm currently playing "life guard" for my little swimming sweethearts and I decided I might be able to get away with writing down some feelings... as long as I am concise. ;)

The day before yesterday the word was "Chosen".

That word hung with me all day with ease. I have had several blessings including my patriarchal blessing where the Lord reveals to me that I am "choice" and "chosen" for this day and my specific, special, and important mission... which I'm still trying to define.

"Many are called but few are chosen." kept coming to mind that day.

But the bottom line is that if I am honest with what I know to be true because I believe in the great power of faith, and the authority of the priesthood, and I believe in the gift of prophesy... I have had many witnesses that I AM CHOSEN. All of use living on the Earth right now are chosen. That's a big deal. Who cares if there are so many of us. There are a whole lot more of the enemy roaming around bothering everyone. The fact that we are chosen for this time is no small thing. We are hear to do literal battle. Now to figure out what that looks like to the Lord and do it.

Yesterday the word was confident.

Have you noticed that the last definition of confident is actually NEGATIVE? Can you really be overly confident? I don't know. I think... no. Unless that confidence is in something that isn't worthy of having such trust.

But when I generally think of confidence I cap it off with "in the Lord". I suppose the dictionary people don't think of it that way...

Guess what... I didn't really even know yesterday's word was "confident" until a few minutes ago. I spent the whole weekend rushing around with a birthday party, guests, and clean up, and then I crashed hard and slept most of the day yesterday. I hope on my next go-round I do a better job staying on task. :-P

And now, "Concise".

Concise:
1) Brief; short;, applied to language or style; containing few words; comprehensive; comprehending much in few words, or the principal matters only.

I'm not generally concise in my language. I tend to be wordy and sometimes it takes me a long time to get around to figuring out HOW to say what I feel.

Most of the time when I DO something I am straight to the point and get things done well and quickly. I think there is more to this word than I comprehend. It's barely 4:10pm though so maybe by the time I go to bed I will feel more connected to it.

Ugh! Can we start over? I feel like I'm failing! (That was concise, right? LOL!)

Love,
Bronwen